Book Review: Save Me, Kurt Cobain

22055480Title: Save Me, Kurt Cobain

Author: Jenny Manzer

My Rating: ★★★★

Goodreads Summary: Nico Cavan has been adrift since her mother vanished when she was four—maternal abandonment isn’t exactly something you can just get over. Staying invisible at school is how she copes—that and listening to alt music and summoning spirits on the Ouija board with her best friend and co-conspirator in sarcasm, Obe. But when a chance discovery opens a window onto her mom’s wild past, it sparks an idea in her brain that takes hold and won’t let go.

On a ferry departing Seattle, Nico encounters a slight blond guy with piercing blue eyes wearing a hooded jacket. Something in her heart tells her that this feeling she has might actually be the truth, so she follows him to a remote cabin in the Pacific Northwest. When she is stranded there by a winter storm, fear and darkness collide, and the only one who can save Nico might just be herself.”

My Thoughts:

I was pulled in from the very page. Nico, the narrator, starts talking about the day her mother disappeared, which is sad of course. However, it makes me want to know more about her mother and the story behind her disappearance. The pacing is good after the beginning, too. Nothing felt too fast or too slow, and kept me interested throughout the book. Because of the pacing and the intriguing storyline, Save Me, Kurt Cobain was a fun and fast read.

One of the things I really liked about this book are the chapter titles, because they are Nirvana song titles. They helped give an idea of what the chapter would be about in a creative way. Additionally, I liked how there were some musical puns/references throughout the book. It helped tie the book together, and was just cool to read. For example:

I hate myself and I want to die, I thought, trying it on for size. I’m not even sure the words held any meaning. I wondered if that was how Kurt Cobain felt singing the band’s big hits over and over.”

(I Hate Myself  and I Want To Die is a Nirvana song).

The characters in Save Me, Kurt Cobain are nowhere near boring. Every character has an interesting story and quirks, which made them fun to read about. Not only are the characters interesting and intriguing, but they are also easy to relate to.

I haven’t made this disclaimer yet, so I guess I’ll make it now: although I would recommend this book to most people, if you dislike 90’s alternative rock music, I would definitely not recommend this book. (But if you don’t…why?! Not even Smells Like Teen Spirit? Not even Miss World?) Here’s why: (even though it’s pretty self explanatory), that’s exactly what the book is about. That being said, if you like Kurt Cobain, Nirvana, or any other 90’s alternative rock band, you will find yourself right at home here. Other than reminding me why I love Nirvana so much (too much. I think it’s actually bad for my health), this book reminded me that I really need to go listen to Mudhoney, Bikini Kill, Sonic Youth, etc. since I haven’t gotten around to that yet…

As many books do, this book hit me right in the feels. This book hit me in a different part of my feels though. It hit my Nirvana feels over and over again. (And passed them back and forth…)

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Me when making that Drain You pun

(“Chew my meat for you/pass it back and forth in a passionate kiss/from my mouth to yours” are lyrics from Drain You, a song off of Nevermind. Also, the Foo Fighters have a great song called Back and Forth I would also recommend).

Anyway…the descriptions of Kurt and the band as a whole are so good and accurate. It reminded me of how great they really were and made me a little sad, too, because of what I just said. For example:

“When Kurt Cobain played his guitar, he looked weightless, like a blonde marionette. I can still picture the black-and-white concert photos of him. Rising up, slamming down the chords, then smashing stuff.”

Not only the way he performed, but also who he was as a person. For example:

“Cobain had shunned mainstream popularity on one hand while rabidly pursuing rock stardom with the other, berating his managers for inadequate promotion, and dumping Seattle’s Sub Pop for a bigger label. Cobain was, it seemed, the most ambitious twentysomething slacker you could ever meet.”

Overall, Save Me, Kurt Cobain was a good book that tells a unique story about loss, friendship and really good music.


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15 of the Saddest Lyrics I Know

First of all, I want to quickly apologize for how long it’s been since I last posted. I’ve been pretty busy with school and Driver’s Ed, but now I have more free time and it’s spring break! Finally! Anyway, onto the post!


I listen to a lot of music, much of which is really sad. But some of those really sad songs are really beautifully written, so I thought I would share them with you. I’m all apologies in advance if you cry *ba boom chhh*

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At least Kurt thinks I’m funny

(If you didn’t get it, All Apologies is a song on the 1993 album by Nirvana, In Utero.) Anyways, on to the crying.

There are going to be four quotes in a row from Troye Sivan, because he likes tearing my heart apart, apparently…

“So what are you waiting for?
‘Cause someone could love you more
I’m just a lost boy, lost boy.”- LOST BOY by Troye Sivan

“Yeah, we knew from the beginning
That this wasn’t never ending
Shouldn’t stay too long
‘Cause we’re both too young
To give into forever.”- LOST BOY by Troye Sivan

Yes. Both of those extremely sad lyrics came from one song. It’s so good, but so sad. 

“‘Distance makes the heart grow fonder’
Said by someone stronger than me.”- DKLA by Troye Sivan

“I don’t mind that I know that you’re wrong
I don’t mind that you think you’re right
All I want is a fight to fight
Anything but quiet.”- THE QUIET by Troye Sivan

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My heart hurts

But we must continue!

“Broken pieces, break into me
So imperfectly what you should be
Lay here, it’s safe here, I’ll let you be broken open
Hide here, confide here so we can be broken open.”- Broken Open by Adam Lambert

This one is a little more inspirational, but still super sad. The whole song is about falling to pieces. If that’s not sad, I don’t know what is.

“Think I got myself in trouble
So I fill the bath with bubbles
Then I’ll put the towels all away
Should’ve never said the word ‘love’
Threw a toaster in the bathtub
I’m sick of all the games I have to play.”- Soap by Melanie Martinez

Here’s another Melanie lyric, this time about rape, capturing the idea in a very chilling way.

“Eenie meenie miny mo
Catch a lady by her toes
If she screams, don’t let her go.”- Tag You’re It by Melanie Martinez

Back to the subject of relationships, here’s another one…

“Wish I could just find a way
To have all your memories erased
‘Cause constantly they’re haunting me.”- Can’t Let You Go by Adam Lambert

“I wish I was like you
Easily amused.”- All Apologies by Nirvana

And more Nirvana…this one is a bit more bittersweet, but still pulls on your heartstrings.

“She loves him more than he will ever know
He loves her more than he will ever show.”- Swap Meet by Nirvana

“Radio – radio
I’d sit alone and watch your light
My only friend through teenage nights.”- Radio Ga Ga by Queen

More Queen…

“Mama, ooo (anyway the wind blows)
I don’t want to die
I sometimes wish I’d never been born at all.”- Bohemian Rhapsody by Queen

This next one deals with war in such an interesting way. It’s another Troye Sivan lyric.

“Let’s go have fun, you and me in the old Jeep
Ride around town with our rifles on the front seat
Fun, you and me in the Middle East
Shooting at rocks, bullets cocked in the midday sun
You and me in the old Jeep
Ride around town with our rifles on the front seat
Fun, you and me in the Middle East
Shooting at rocks, bullets cocked in the midday sun.”- Fun by Troye Sivan

Any song dealing with death is sad, but this one stabs me in my heart. The artist knew he was going to die when he wrote it, and knowing that makes the whole song so much sadder.

“Well I’ll never get my chance
Be ready to live and it’ll be ripped right out of my hands.”- Clouds by Zack Sobiech

This one is not necessarily about death, but I listened to it after someone I knew died, so I associate it with that, and it’s a very sad song any way you look at it.

“But you are not alone
I am here with you
Though we’re far apart
You’re always in my heart.”- You Are Not Alone by Michael Jackson

Ugghhhh…ouch my heart. I don’t know why I do this to myself! But the songs are so beautiful, so I guess I understand why. I made a playlist with all of these songs on it, so go listen to it hereClouds is not included on the playlist because it’s not on Spotify, so sorry for that, but I have the link to listen to it on YouTube here.

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